Thursday, November 04, 2004
12:05 AM
-okay...currently resided to http://shadowinmyheart.blogspot.com/...coz i think dere is too mani sorrows in dis blog...i will still keep dis blog on...but no more post...so everyone...relin kme okay...thankx...ciao...-
|| sweetenedd ||
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
12:41 PM
-okay...i m sayin dis once n for all...its not i dunt wan to b dere for u...but u hab exams for heaven's sake...u nid to study...if u wan to retain bcoz ob me...for all i care...go on...not say i did all these to avoid u...y would i?get a life okay...i didnt say to break...u found another girl fren for urself...i didnt say anything okay...so naw...stop botherin me...go get urself into something which u call carin okay...im not for u as u put it dat way...den fine...im not carin enuf...den go ahead...get urself another girl fren...which u had...behind my back...u arnt dat carin urself okay...so dunt tok about me...u put it lyk u r the angel n im the devil...lyk ur the onli carin person in the world...i tell u off rite here rite naw...u r nothing but a dirt bag...u ass hole...stop thinkin ur best...cream ob the crop...bcoz if u r the cream ob crop...no one is the bad one anymore...u r dirty...lan...shit...get it...i dunt nid another heart-breaker lyk u...everytym im faced wit another hope...i alwaes gib in...y m i lyk dat?y muz i end up lyk dat?everytym...n everytym...its juz one cut deeper den the other...forget it le ba...neber gonna lurbb again...i promise the world...im neber gona let myself fall in again...neber n dats final...hu cares about the angel's forbidden love?i rather b forbidden to love...thou the angels stife hard for love...end up wit a happy endin...i finally realise dat its juz a fairy tale...it wunt happen in real life de...so...i will juz stick to thinkin about the fairy tales dat happen in the angle's life...so i dunt wan any one rite naw...to wake me up...n make my dream pop...float away...so eh...dunt bother me...okay...since u think its all my fault...so b it okay...ur correct la...u r the angel la...im the devil okay...happy naw...its all settled...all my fault...so naw...get out ob my life...i dunt nid u anymore...in the first place...i neber thot i had u...-
|| sweetenedd ||
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
11:15 PM
-okay...today...oso didnt feel good...fought wit alot ob ppl today...became very forgetful...kor kor say cumin back today...den i totally forgot about it...im such an ass hole...den he cum back no food to eat...sigh...im really sowie...sigh...i hate my self...im so sowie kor kor...den i oso ended fightin wit my lil bro...sigh...im sowie eh...didnt mean to...everyone...im truely sowie...im still not over wat happened yesterday...okay...so im here to apologise wat happened tym before...im juz not happy naw a days...juz dunt feel lyk me anymore...im sowie eh...so...i still nid tym to release all these tention in me...im sowie...not in the mood to rite anything eh...gibin u ppl the song ai ne...by s.h.e...hopefully u pass by n c it...coz i noe u lyk s.h.e.
爱呢
爱呢 爱呢 我们的(I'll remember) 爱呢
你怀里藏什么 挤得抱不紧我 在你胸口找温柔 只找到一片沙漠
没有弧度的笑容 没有温度的手 慢慢倾斜的天空 正迅速压垮着我
爱呢 你的爱呢 你呢 我的你呢 从前的 那些快乐 变了 没了
难道你真舍得 真舍不得 心呢 被弄痛了 承诺呢 被丢弃了 我的 爱呢 你把它给谁了
你在回味什么 嘴唇没空吻我 想在听你说爱我 只听到一阵沉默
是不是我迷了路 走进别人的梦中 原本熟悉的亲密 变成陌生的问候
知道世界很善变 没想到连你也变 我好怀念你刚开始爱上我的那天-
|| sweetenedd ||
Monday, November 01, 2004
11:56 PM
-okay...aint dat happy today...actually very angry n sad...i m so gonna kill myself...first ob all...i had tons ob hmwk by my bed side...n mum gonna brin me to get sec 2 stuff le...wen will she understand the meanin ob hoiliday...argh...im startin my holis wit a bad start...den ah...we had a conference...where wallace kor didnt co-opperate...he juz kept invitin those hu didnt wana tok about the bbq stuff...make until everyones com lack...im not alwaes in a good mood de okay...get something better to do can...until i really could not stand it le hor...i juz quit the conversation n started my own one...where onli gurls were present...so dat we dunt hab ppl lyk wallace kor kor...bein so rushed n wans everyone to b involved...anyway...naw really tired n stressed up...tired coz i spend my whole day doin dat tupid webbie which had tons ob mistakes...anyway...really stressed...coz got alot ob hmwk tomolo...n guzheng on wed...haven pratice...haw??i dunt care le la...dunt make it syf den dunt lor...n the last thing here im makin clear to all...i hate guys!!!u ass holes...wateva is the prob wit u guys??u think gurls r toys for u to play wit n wen u got a new one...we get thrown away izzit...its not dat simple...n i wunt make it dat simple...i got hurt once not bad enuf...got hurt again n again...i m startin to think dat my prince is neber gonna make it to me le...lost hope in lurbb le...naw i understand haw jay kor kor feels le...mayb i shall rephraise it...i hate guys hu play wit gurls feelins...i wanna thank the guys hu were dere wen i nided dem...really thank yew guys...n my jie meis...lurbb u all...but as for those hu broke my heart...i hate u all...i noe im not suppose to...but u gav me no choice...its juz lyk...my heart...juz lyk a fragile glass bottle...standin on the highest part ob a shelf...n suddenly...some kid juz cums...tryin to get me...but juz lost his handlin...n juz let me fall to the ground...shatterin...breakin...into a million pieces...but wen the kid wans to patch it back...dere r lines...holes which r not covered...present in me...so izzit the same??not the same anymore...i alwaes tell myself...gib it up ba...but weneva a new hope cums...i juz gib in again...y?y muz i b so tupid...y muz i gib in everytym...i will onli end up bein hurt again...do u guys think its fun?i dunt think so...u ought to hav a taste ob it...from today onwards...no more guys n stuff...no more...neber...i will juz grow up to becum a well bred woman ba...wit no boys to hindle my work...wateva it is...i dunt nid guys...i can stay alive witout u ppl...hu cares about u ppl?i dunt naw...n neber will...anyway...was listenin to shadow by ashlee simpson...really good wor...i think it so shows her life...i show it to u ppl ba...heres shadow by ashlee simpson...
"Shadow"
I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me
All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity
So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me-
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past is in the past
I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day
okay...hav enuf of tokin le...i juz wanna dig a hole...hide myself in dere foreva...i dunt wanna tok to anyone mayb for sometym ba...but see first...anyway...goin le...juz wanna say to those guys...thank yew for hurtin me...for it made me stronger...thank yew for liein to me...for it made me more careful...so it doesnt mean u guys r worthless thou...u cum in handy wen i nid to build up my character...thank yew...hope dat u can oso help other ppl ba...hate u foreva-
|| sweetenedd ||
Sunday, October 31, 2004
4:36 PM
-okay...yesterday really too tired to type anything...juz did some quizes...dats all lor...today...i shall fill u ppl wit wat happened yesterday...yesterday...went to east coast park...go play!!!wOhOo~~~i thot was kinda borin coz go wit church ma...lil did i noe it was total fun!!!me n dorcas once we reach...we so totally broke away form the group...wOhOo~~~we walled along the beach...den sat on a really big rock...den i screamed all my sorrows away...was very nice...den we went on walkin...wen we reach the place where the water came from...we start to built a sand castle...den some ob the other sistas cum to help too...really had alot ob fun buildin it...it was really nice too...very pretty...but naw no pic...its in david's camera...but his internet now not available...so muz wait...so ppl...wait patiently...okay...its really nice...so its really worth waitin...great tym i had dere...we picked sea shells...seaweeds...sticks to built it...so its really nice...den after finish...we took pics ob it lor...its really cool...wOhOo~~~anyway...finish le...was very tired...n hungry...coz neber eat lunch...so juz came home...wanted to wait for bro david...but today den he tell me internet down...hai wo cannot rest eariler...anyway...not really in the mood to rite...wen the pic is available...den i show to u ppl...today...gonna intro to u ppl...ashlee simpson de pieces ob me...i really lyk the song...nice soong...
"Pieces Of Me"
On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me
Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts
[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there
Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have
[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah
On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can dream
[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...
nice song...everyone really havta listen to it...anyway...tomolo intro to u ppl ashlee simpson de shadow...another very nice song...so everyone...enjoy...ciao...-
|| sweetenedd ||
Saturday, October 30, 2004
10:05 PM
What Color Angel Are You? (ANIME PICS)
You're a "Pink Angel". Now, just because
it may be a little bit of a feminin color
doesn't mean you're all girly and whiney.
You're very self-less and love to bring good
news to people because you like seeing people
happy. You have better manners than most and
people love how polite you can be. You're
friends love that they hardley ever get in
arguments with you and can barely get mad at
you! You're friends and family mean so much to
you and it takes more than a fight to break you
away from them. (if you cannot see the pics, go
near the bottom of my homepage and find your
result. look closely to make sure your look in
the right place)
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What Color Angel Are You? (ANIME PICS)
You're a "Green Angel". You're one person
who is extremely protective of people around
you (especially your friends) and you'd end up
as a gaurdian angel. You're stronger than most
and aren't ashamed to show it. People know how
tough you are and don't dare to mess with you
when you get mad. You've got a serious justice
complex so anything that seems wrong makes you
mad. You're real close with your friends and
couldn't live wihout them so even in heaven,
you want to help them. You know they'd want you
as a gaudian angel and you'd love to be able to
ensure safety of your friends for yourself
because you're on of those "If you want
something done right, do it yourself" kind
of person. (if you cannot see the pics, go near
the bottom of my homepage and find your result.
look closely to make sure your look in the
right place)
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Where did you come from?
You came from heaven. Your gole in life is to help
others and to make the world a better place.
Some call you weak, but in reality your soul is
very strong. If only more people were like
you...
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Where did you come from?
You came from the flowers. Innocent, cute, you see
the world in a rainbow colored perpective.
Happy, but sometimes a bit foolish.
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Where did you come from?
You came from the water. Calm and shy, you know
what you want, but sometimes are afraid to
stand up for yourself.
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What season are you? (pics)
You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.(If you can't see tje
pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)
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What feeling do you represent?
You represent... happiness.
Boy, are you full of cheer or what...? You have a
sunny disposition and enjoy trying to spread
your happiness. You have a tendency to be a
little hyper, but you have the ability to make
your own fun no matter what.
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What feeling do you represent?
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.
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What kind of dark person are you?
Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!
Please rate ^^
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What Mystical Creature Are You? (Pictures)
You're like a fairy. Fairies were the little pixies
that usually lived in the forest with wings
like butterflies and perfect little faces.
they had brown or blonde hair and pale skin
with freckles. They were entergetic, joyful,
playful, very smart, and peaceful. Fairies are
deffinately the most famous of all fantasy
creatures. (If you cannot see the picture, go
to my userpage and look near the bottom. There
should be the picture and description for all
the results)
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What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.
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What is your element?
Water. Whatever you do, where or when, you do it
with all of your heart. You listen to your
heart and all of your emotions are true
non-acting. Friends are very importent to you
and you will do anything for them. You're the
most dreamy of all 4 elements.
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What kind of beauty should you have? (girls w/ pics)
Your beauty is sweet! You are so incredibly
adorable that people love to saw how cute you
look. Beauty like yours can be characterized as
youthfullness. You probably look very young or
maybe even younger than you actually are. Your
a very timid person some of the time. (If you can't
see the pictures, go to my profile and look
near the very bottom)
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**The ultimate Fairy quiz**(anime pics!) for girls, but if you are a guy you can take it too! !**being improved more**!
You are like the snow fairy, she is very beautiful,
she has the power to make things beautiful, but
She is sometimes quite selfish, and spends most
of the time she should be using her magic
staring at her self in the mirror. Other than
the fact that she is vain and selfish. She is
a nice person, when she IS actually using her
magic, her powers are great, and she is very
helpful. Well that's most of the tings about
the snow fairy, can you relate to some of them?
You probably can, because that is what this
quiz is for!
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What elemental dragon are you?
Your a water Dragon! Congrats! Like ice dragons,
you are extremly powerful, but show it more
often. You are a leader, and like to speak your
opinion. AND, you are charming, swift, and
great at dancing, ou enjoy getting stuck in the
rain, playing with friends, and swimming
anywhere! Wat-ER you wating for?
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|| sweetenedd ||
Friday, October 29, 2004
11:53 AM
-eh...okay...today i really very tired...dunno y...but yesterday could not sleep...sigh...so naw very tired lor...i m gonna sleep after i rite dis ba...hab no mood to do anything...so today...woke up...go to school...den wen it was flag raisin ceremoney de announcement tym...it rained...den the tupid principal make us stay in the parade square to listen to dem gib out prizes...*crazy*...tupid...ass hole...den was a lil wet la...den lyk naw i sick liao lor...so sad...ahhhh~~~she is one sickenin big ass...hate her foreva...haha...den we went back to class...quickly took down the decorations coz the school wanted us to do it...den miss tan walked in...den she was lyk smilin at us...not dat sacarstic smile...but it was a really nice smile...my first tym seein it...it suddenly hit me dat...miss tan to me is thee best teacher in the world...haha...but its true...dis is really cumin from deep down in ma heart...anyway...she was lyk habin fun wit us...i was lyk jokin wit her lor!!!was dat great or wat...she wasnt dat fierce after all...she joked back wit me...haha...it was lyk...she told us 'class...dat would b your holi hmwk...' den i 'huh...' in front ob her la...den she looked at me...den i was lyk thinkin 'goodbye sophia...your last day on earth...'...but...she was lyk...'wat huh...no huh...muz say good...' den i juz say 'good' lor...haha...den both ob us lauf...haha...so fun...i really lurbb miss tan ba...she is one ob the best teacher i eva hab...i really gonna miss dis class...she is not dat strict after all...den after class...i went round huggin ma frens...sigh...i m gonna miss dem too...expecially one ob dem...sigh...*weep*...*snif*...*sigh*...but it all was done by me wat...i caused all those things to happen de...i shouldnt hab any rights to cry or feel sad about...i wanted to hug her the last...coz lyk dat i can hug her longer ma...so i think i did hug her longer den other ppl ba...i almost wanted to cry out...n tell her dat im sowie...n im gonna miss her the most...but as u ppl noe...wo hen ai mian zi...very stubbon...i juz dunt dare to tell it in front ob her...so i juz let her go n quickly rush out lor...hopin dat no one sees me goin to cry le...but i noe dat i hab no right to cry anyway...im sure gonna miss her alot...i dunno wat to do le...but i still wan u to noe deep in my heart...i alwaes left a place for u...as my one n onli best fren...so i m gonna post a lyric sang by s club...its say goodbye...the best one i could find to descride haw i really feel naw...
"Say Goodbye"
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
[chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last
[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel
[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies
really meets my nids naw...althou i lurbb the tym we spent...but as dey said...good things dunt last foreva...but we muz neber hav any regrets...but i cant think about not havin any regrets...juz dat naw is the tym for both ob us to lead our own lives le...althou sayin good bye is the hardest thing to say...althou i will miss u in every way...but i wan u to noe dat the bond between us n the lurbb for each other will neber die...mayb wen tym passes...we will wish we neber say all those bad stuff to each other...for all the great tym we had...i wan u to noe dat its always in ma heart...n dat if i could i wan to stop the world from movin juz to save dat moment we had...wen ur in trouble or wateva...n u nid a person dere for u to hug...look for me...coz i will always b waitin for u...even if dere r a 100 steps...u juz havta take 1 step...n i will do the other 99 for u...nothing will change the frenship we had...i wish i could tell u dis in ur face...but...im scared...scared dat u dunt feel the way i do...im sowie for all the trouble i caused...dat selfish me...i wish i neber met u...so dat i dunt havta brin all these pain to u...n the others...im truely very sowie...but as i said...true lurbb neber dies...even if u dunt feel the way i do...i juz wan u to noe dat...i still care for u...thank yew for bringin light to my life...those days could b said as the happiest days ob my life...thank yew...n i lurbb n miss u foreva...-
|| sweetenedd ||